16/30 A Different Kind of Goodbye

Rewriting Memory

I wished I could’ve said it in a different manner

Then again youth comes with vagary and caprice

Some facades will eventually crack or break down

And eventually the truth seeps out piece by piece

But it wasn’t so much me understanding my true worth

It was knowing that there was a promising path

And…

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13/30 The Missed Call I Answered

Rewriting Memory

And delivered right into temptation

My soul went from the smoke into the flame

Yet in a right state of mind and elation

I saw the likely consequences in frame

But the inclination and impulse lingered

Buried deep under layers of decorum

Like some dormant beast waiting to be triggered

In the furthest…

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12/30 The Door I Didn’t Slam

Rewriting Memory

I knew I tried to do my best to be honest

But sometimes some relationships don’t pan out

Even if there’s a light amidst kindred spirits

Feelings can dry up and go into a drought

And maybe it was the times and those days of youth

Like a rollercoaster – emotions ran wild

One day we’re all laughing and…

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11/30 the past with the edges sanded down

rewriting memory

pow! that’s when life hit me right square in the face

i had to quickly learn how to roll with the punch

but then that’s when i also lost all hope and faith

so i had to follow my instinct…with a hunch

adulthood can sometimes be cruel mother

when some of the lessons were harsh, brash but…

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10/30 The Version Without Hesitation

Rewriting Memory

Money, I chose money over education

Earning a living was a need but it had an effect

I made my way up but then I hit ceilings

I knew there was growth in me in retrospect

And no matter where I went or where I landed

I moved up in some way but couldn’t go higher

There was something missing I knew I had…

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09/30 A Version Without Regret

Rewriting Memory

I was in town visiting my son one Saturday

When I told him: “later we’ll go visit grandpa”

But time ran out and other plans got in the way

I didn’t call him and that’s always been my flaw

As the week went by, I just went about my way

With work and family matters I just carried on

And it wasn’t until…

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7/30 The Look You Gave Me (Changed)

Rewriting Memory

There was always a kind of sadness in your eyes

Even when you were baby and looked at me

There was always this emotive tone in your voice

So young and yet so full of melancholy

In those days there was an innocence in your face

While I prayed that you’d remember our special time

But as you grew there…

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6/30 A Memory Without Silence

Rewriting Memory

She used to have this beautiful long jet-black hair

It’s one of my earliest childhood memories

She used to comb it right in front of the mirror

And then she’d wear other little accessories

There was one time when she didn’t say goodbye

She later confessed she didn’t want to hurt me

But at five I…

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3/30 A Childhood with Better Lighting

Rewriting Memories

Never mind the bombs or images of war

Or the blind kid on the bus singing trying to make a living

How did we neglect the hungry and the destitute and the old?

But time does not forget

It just plays in a private theater

Like a matinee waiting for me to come in and watch

Amidst all that chaos…

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2/30 If I Had Turned Around

Rewriting Memories

If I had turned around that night and went home

I believe I would have ended up dead

The guilt I held never left me alone

Filling my head with never ending dread

If I had turned around that night and gone back

Within days we would have been at square one

But I would have sunk deeper…

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There is an inner storm brewing
Moving through the heart, mind and soul
And those tempting thoughts are strewing
On the verge of losing control

The heart wants it bad piece by piece
The soul burns slowly with passion
While the mind fights pursuing peace
Machinations move in fashion

There’s a beautiful sensation
When the winds caress and enthrall
Waiting…

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